After completing daily college lectures we were hanging out in the Cafeteria.
Outside it was not a sunny day but some sprinkling showers were their as in the month of August as it should be.
Riya my friend was a little shocked at my response, when I told her about the last call.Yes it was my Ex who had called after around 3 months,unlike Riya I was too shocked after having his call & went outside to receive the call, but suddenly something strike me.
The most dominant person in the relationship trying to hold & mould things according to his wish how can drop his ego &call me after such a huge break.I received the call as to some extent I was happy getting his call,
"Hello" he said I was just about to break down & he continued to say that "what do you think of yourself, how could you stay without calling or messaging me,you cant do this ?
(We had a big fight 3 months before after which I tried to contact him for atleast 2 months & he remained unanswered) as if I was only responsible to call him to say sorry or get things sorted everytime but this time I had given up clearing this things as I felt he is taking me for granted.
"I was expecting that at least once you would call me to ask whats wrong"? I answered
The little happiness within me was vanishing slowly as I could feel his egoistic voice & am so right attitude which was the reason why I stopped carrying the baggage of this relationship & he really didn't care.
He was continuously talking over & suddenly started accusing me for every blunder in the relation & started yelling at me, that was the point my patience gave up & I lost my temper & just didn't want to hear that guy anymore "I am done with you" I answered & disconnected.
Riya understood something was wrong with me she was about to ask but before that I told her "I ended this" She said lets have pastry & coffee that was the favorite dish of ours when we were happy. I was full of mixed feelings when Riya told me that you are such a fool why did you take so long to take your decision, anyhow you were nowhere in this relation it was always about him.
I realized that "Relations are beautiful they need to get nourished from both ends as an equal responsibility, its not one sided always its a two way traffic which needs to meet up at some point without accidents & if your sure of ending up with such harmful accidents then its better to stop driving it.
I am sensitive &an emotional female but yess not an emotional fool to carry the unnecessary baggage of any relationship which can keep none happy at least not at cost of my self-respect
Being in love yess it took time for me to realize the fact,but it was not too late to raise my voice. Its better to end some relations before they ruin you from inside.
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